Election Emotions
Nov. 9th, 2005 08:10 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
livingdebEvery single one of the idiotic amendments passed (although one that lengthened the terms for regional mobility authorities from two years to six years didn't). We continue to resolve local disputes with constitutional amendments and now we are restricting rights. It's one thing to feel that our politicians are corrupt, but to feel that the majority of our citizens are imbeciles is, in a democracy, disconcerting at best.
Not only that, but proposition 2, meant to ban gay marriage, passed in every single county in the state except mine. Texas is a big state, with something like 235 counties. It's hard to imagine that this amendment could have passed in every single other county. I suddenly feel surrounded by hostile forces.
First I wanted to cry for a long time.
Then I wanted to refuse to ever get married, in protest. Who wants a piece of that if it's only for people who are lucky enough to fall in love with the "right" gender? I'll just live in sin forever. That'll show 'em.
(Although since I don't want kids, I don't suppose I'm really human anyway.)
Then I wanted to start grabbing other females and kissing them in public. In Dallas. In a mall. No, in front of a church. No, in a church. One of these churches where you shake hands with everybody at the end? I surround myself with females and start kissing them.
Of course none of these things would help. Revenge only exacerbates conflict. It's probably much easier to tolerate gay people if they are safely closeted, just like it is easier to tolerate smart people when they are safely locked away in their little cubicles, inventing cool things for you to buy, but only as workaholics, not as people trying to interact with you.
I am trying not to feel vengeful, but I can't help feeling saddened and disgusted and vulnerable.
Not only that, but proposition 2, meant to ban gay marriage, passed in every single county in the state except mine. Texas is a big state, with something like 235 counties. It's hard to imagine that this amendment could have passed in every single other county. I suddenly feel surrounded by hostile forces.
First I wanted to cry for a long time.
Then I wanted to refuse to ever get married, in protest. Who wants a piece of that if it's only for people who are lucky enough to fall in love with the "right" gender? I'll just live in sin forever. That'll show 'em.
(Although since I don't want kids, I don't suppose I'm really human anyway.)
Then I wanted to start grabbing other females and kissing them in public. In Dallas. In a mall. No, in front of a church. No, in a church. One of these churches where you shake hands with everybody at the end? I surround myself with females and start kissing them.
Of course none of these things would help. Revenge only exacerbates conflict. It's probably much easier to tolerate gay people if they are safely closeted, just like it is easier to tolerate smart people when they are safely locked away in their little cubicles, inventing cool things for you to buy, but only as workaholics, not as people trying to interact with you.
I am trying not to feel vengeful, but I can't help feeling saddened and disgusted and vulnerable.