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Still mourning a little
Sep. 5th, 2014 10:10 pmThey say that when someone close to you dies, it gets better in time. That's true.
But it also gets worse. Because every year that goes by is another year that person doesn't get to have.
Today is the birthday of one of those people.
She was the athletic one. I'm angry that she missed rock climbing. At which she would have rocked (couldn't resist). I'm pretty angry about ultimate frisbee, too, where she might have blown a few stereotypes. But what else? Would she have been into ballroom dancing? Marathons? Yoga? Or too busy with work and family? I don't get to know.
She was the practical one. She was majoring in accounting. I thought that sounded kind of boring. But then look at how my career turned out! Would she have made piles of money? Would she have spent it all on stuff, or would she have been financially solid? How would the latest recession have treated her?
She was the stylish one. How many hair styles would I have seen her try? Would I have tried any of them myself (we had the exact same hair except hers was even thicker)? Would she be coloring her hair by now? If so, just to hide the grey, or would she be trying colors more exotic than her dishwater blonde? Could her vision problems have been fixed by surgery?
Would we ever have been roommates? Would I have been auntie to her kids? Would we have drifted apart long ago by now? So many things I never get to know.
Happy birthday to Kristen, already gone longer than she was here.
But it also gets worse. Because every year that goes by is another year that person doesn't get to have.
Today is the birthday of one of those people.
She was the athletic one. I'm angry that she missed rock climbing. At which she would have rocked (couldn't resist). I'm pretty angry about ultimate frisbee, too, where she might have blown a few stereotypes. But what else? Would she have been into ballroom dancing? Marathons? Yoga? Or too busy with work and family? I don't get to know.
She was the practical one. She was majoring in accounting. I thought that sounded kind of boring. But then look at how my career turned out! Would she have made piles of money? Would she have spent it all on stuff, or would she have been financially solid? How would the latest recession have treated her?
She was the stylish one. How many hair styles would I have seen her try? Would I have tried any of them myself (we had the exact same hair except hers was even thicker)? Would she be coloring her hair by now? If so, just to hide the grey, or would she be trying colors more exotic than her dishwater blonde? Could her vision problems have been fixed by surgery?
Would we ever have been roommates? Would I have been auntie to her kids? Would we have drifted apart long ago by now? So many things I never get to know.
Happy birthday to Kristen, already gone longer than she was here.